tell me what you see
im also not the person you see. im sure of it. i dont have it all together. not by a longshot. im terrified of being alone. im not independent. i cant imagine living like this forever. on my own. without a family. feeling so goddamn lonely. i want to get used to this. i really do. im sure i will... what happens to all my grand plans... if im such a mess.

grown-ups live alone all the time. im not even living alone. i have 3 awesome roommates. but its different. we all have our own lives. we are a family... but its still different. we're all here by ourselves.

i am rambling all over the place here. maybe you understand, maybe you dont. ive had a good cry. so i must have got something out.