o i'm gonna buy this place and start a fire
stand here until i fill all your heart's desires

i wonder if i'll ever become the person i imagine. and even if i felt like that person... would others see me as i want them to? its so frustrating to have to give up that power... to accept that you are going to see me in a certain way... a way that maybe i can't completely control. you're going to see me in relation to everyone else you know... everyone else you've ever known. you're going to see me in relation to yourself, in relation to your experiences... to your hopes and your failures. i can control my actions... i can control my appearance... but i can't control what these things mean to you.

...stand here beside me baby, watch the orange glow.