look, i'm standing naked before you
don't you want more then my sex?

let's get to the point. i let brendan take naked pictures of me tonight. not porn star naked pictures. normal person naked pictures for his school assignment. it was uncomfortable at first... seeing as he decided to stay fully clothed. lol. but i was surprisingly comfortable with the whole process. i continue to be amazed with myself. things that i think i can't do... or things that i never would have done a year ago... are the same things i can just DO now. and i'm glad i could do it. or maybe i'm just glad he asked me. i think for me it was another step in this journey i seem to be on in getting comfortable in my skin. it was a big step and i thank him for that. and seeing as he procrastinated like the procrastinating bastard he is, we got them developed right after... and we got to look through them. i actually liked a lot of em.

it's weird seeing naked pictures of yourself. everyone should try it. take your body and put it in an art context. stop scrutinizing and start embracing. god dammit. i'm fucking sick of only seeing naked supermodels. i wish there was a "naked" day where we all had to walk around buck fucking naked. we need perspective. we need to see that a naked woman does not always look like jennifer lopez and a naked man does not always look like brad pitt. and if we don't look like jennifer lopez or brad pitt naked, that in no way means we aren't gorgeous or our bodies are any less real. nakedness is a lot more diverse than we are led to believe. and i hate it.