who's got the crack?
so i'm here. and i want to start this up regularly again. montreal is beautiful, mcgill is gorgeous, my room is small, the wind just blew my door closed all creepy-like, and i can hear some sort of sport practicing at the field outside my window.

university is very weird. everyone is super friendly. understandable considering most people don't know anyone. but... i find it hard to connect with people like this. i mean, i've talked with people and visited strangers' rooms. but its just chit-chat and perma-happy faces all around. i have this idea that i'm not going to really WANT to make a friend until all this "first week" nerves and stuff go away. hell, it will probably take longer than a week. i can't tell who i want to be friends with because no one is being themselves. i spent most of the morning with this one girl who seemed really nice... then 2 guys walked by and chit-chatted with us. just as they leave she turns to me and says, "i got with both of them last night." nice girl. but geeze.

people are weird. i relish the normal ones i find. weird that i'm seeking out the normal ones. but its true. normal people are rarities here.

i don't know how to make this room my own. i sit here and look at this tape mark on my wall... wondering how to cover it. and everything i try to do just makes it look silly. i dunno. tape mark it is.