ambient music + nap = productive night?
i just can't turn on today. i can't get going. i have a list of things to be accomplished sitting on my desk. sigh. i can't even get up the strength to read through it. i am hoping a nap might spark some life into me. wake up dammit. wake up and focus. today HAS to be a productive day. i fucking scheduled it in goddammit. and here it is 6 oclock... i want to pull out my hair.

actually, i really want to get on a plane and go to amsterdam. did u know that in amsterdam they built the shell head office over the old gallows field? we were looking at old 17th century maps of amsterdam in art history class today. and i just wanted to be there so badly. i wanted to be anywhere badly. anywhere but that cold classroom beside that blonde girl i always sit beside and sometimes chat with. anywhere without that stale coffee in my hand. anywhere where i could be someone else for a minute. travel is amazing like that.

shit. i gotta take out the garbage.