the required year in review.
(aka whatever comes to mind right now)
so... 2004 is through. what did it bring me?
love
- a fresh outlook on an old love. an amazing summer of patios and sleepovers in a tiny basement room. comfort and security.
- hard words to hear. but true ones. i learned that maturity is possible and boy does it make break-ups a hell of a lot easier. ex-lovers can be friends. i promise.
- flirting with the boss and making it with a co-worker were excellent rebound strategies. i learned that it is possible to be away from people for long periods of time... and have little change in important ways. every relationship can be important, no matter how superficial it seems.
- i'm learning to be alone. and i'm learning that sometimes it can be pretty sad.
family
- i don't think family is supposed to make all that much sense.
- i do think that the parents are finally letting go. which is nice. and it makes our relationship a little less volatile.
- i also learned that when i come back to the parents house, there is this really nice comforting feel about being here. its got a very nice feel to it.
- i'm not sure where "home" is anymore. and i think this is part of growing.
school
- i eased out of first year with little trouble. i had a rejuvinated relationship that helped me stay content. it really did.
- the fall semester was like a tornado of emotions. everyone was falling apart and i was no exception. i am putting a lot of hope into this next semester. i am a little scared that this christmas break wasn't enough to... well, solve things.
life
- i'm only starting to really understand what its all about. i'm only starting to feel the freedom that i've been preparing myself for. and i'm trying not to be bored with it. i'm just not feeling the same excitement that i used to. anticipation is always better than actual events.
- it will never make sense. but it will always keep you on your toes.
- people will forever fascinate me.
- i will continue to unravel myself and the strings that hold me together.
(aka whatever comes to mind right now)
so... 2004 is through. what did it bring me?
love
- a fresh outlook on an old love. an amazing summer of patios and sleepovers in a tiny basement room. comfort and security.
- hard words to hear. but true ones. i learned that maturity is possible and boy does it make break-ups a hell of a lot easier. ex-lovers can be friends. i promise.
- flirting with the boss and making it with a co-worker were excellent rebound strategies. i learned that it is possible to be away from people for long periods of time... and have little change in important ways. every relationship can be important, no matter how superficial it seems.
- i'm learning to be alone. and i'm learning that sometimes it can be pretty sad.
family
- i don't think family is supposed to make all that much sense.
- i do think that the parents are finally letting go. which is nice. and it makes our relationship a little less volatile.
- i also learned that when i come back to the parents house, there is this really nice comforting feel about being here. its got a very nice feel to it.
- i'm not sure where "home" is anymore. and i think this is part of growing.
school
- i eased out of first year with little trouble. i had a rejuvinated relationship that helped me stay content. it really did.
- the fall semester was like a tornado of emotions. everyone was falling apart and i was no exception. i am putting a lot of hope into this next semester. i am a little scared that this christmas break wasn't enough to... well, solve things.
life
- i'm only starting to really understand what its all about. i'm only starting to feel the freedom that i've been preparing myself for. and i'm trying not to be bored with it. i'm just not feeling the same excitement that i used to. anticipation is always better than actual events.
- it will never make sense. but it will always keep you on your toes.
- people will forever fascinate me.
- i will continue to unravel myself and the strings that hold me together.
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