you're not exactly an innocent bystander.
maybe i am not letting him in. but maybe its because i know i can't. there's not enough time. letting him in would only necessitate pushing him out in a month.

i am an ugly person sometimes. an ugly person that occasionally wishes she was model thin. an ugly person who hates for no good reason. an ugly person that only thinks of herself. an ugly person that pushes people away at whim and expects them to stick around anyways. an ugly person who judges before she gets to know someone. an ugly person who sometimes wrongfully judges even those she loves.

i guess we can all be pretty ugly, huh?
i won't make excuses.