i could stay here
become someone different/i could stay here/become someone better

i can't shake this bad mood. i walk around waiting for whatever i'm doing to be over. i go to school and wait for that to end. i go to soccer and watch the clock. i get to work and can't wait to leave. where in god's name do i want to go? why can't i just BE somewhere.

i was horrible company today. felt bad for everyone that tried to be around me. its hard when you feel so disgustingly lonely and the people around you only seem to make it worse.

calculus is calling. sleep will have to wait a couple of hours.